4F outing today. Supposedly was to catch a movie first before dinner, but different people watched like different movies already, so it didn't work out. Went to the arcade instead and watched people spam their 1 dollar coins on the candy machine that lets you win big plushies as a jackpot prize. Damn illogical to spend so much money to get candy and its not guaranteed that they will get the prize. Had pizza hut for dinner and the waitress kind of cock up our orders. But in the end we got a 'bonus'. Thanks pizza hut :) Oh yea send me the pics we took!

Anyway on a sidenote, I suddenly feel like there's so much I want to say to certain people, but somehow I can't bring myself to do it. I'm afraid of the kind of response I will get, especially those of being dao-ed. But worse would be a conversation thats kind of fake, as in both parties would try to seem as if nothing ever went wrong between them when its quite obvious its the other way round. I'm quite tired of trying, really.

Sometimes I tell myself to forget it cause its really hopeless, but the other part of me would hope against hope that things would turn out the way I hope it would. Thats quite naive of me I admit. But I really can't get myself to get over it.

I'm not really emo-ing right now. Its just that I have alot of thoughts and I really need to get it all out.

I'm sorry for all the things I did, all the unhappiness I caused.

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